Just something that prompted my opinion!

Michael Jackson: The Death of Peter Pan <~~~ kinda long but you should read it!

I read this article today because my mom sent it to me. I feel it really explains how I feel about Michael Jackson. I agree that a lot of the things he did were obscene and wrong, but can't we just leave the guy alone. I would like to see anyone else grow up like he did with no space EVER to himself and always being in the spotlight no matter what step he took and be even half as talented as he was. At some point we need to learn to forgive everyone and realize everyone make mistakes. Some people know that they make mistakes and don't care, but I feel like MJ honestly had a problem he couldn't get past and as a Psychology major I have to be sympathetic to that. I think now I may understand the whole idea that God forgives everyone no matter what sin they commited. I may not forget what MJ did (not that I cared I honestly don't know many of the details, it's a story I did not follow), but we all must look past that and realize that this man was an icon and that people loved him and there really are some out there who's lives he changed (in a positive way).

And why is it that now that he's dead people can so openly bash him!? Because there's no one to defend him now, so these people feel that they can say whatever they want? I'm sorry, but say as you please, God still knows what you're saying and you're no better than anyone else for being so judgemental. Then I have to wonder if these people who are talking so much crap have ever been around someone who is mentally instable. People I've decided are just rude, not understanding, and VERY judgemental! Well not all people, but I really like the end of this article when he says "Why must our stars fall so spectacularly and fail us so egregiously? Perhaps it's because we want them to. Indeed, it may be the primary function of celebrities like Jackson to show us, in their early radiance, what we could dream of being — and in the murk of their decline, what we fear we could become."

I have to say this is the most brilliantly written article I've read in a long time and I commend the author for his opinion and the courage in such a time of "MJ smack talking" to come out with this!

Ok and now the real deal!

So I just had to do that survey thing cuz it seemed fun ;)

Yesterday I had a shoe party and I really appreciate everyone that came. I think I counted 16 people there it was so so so much fun. It was the first time I've really ever hosted something to the point that I made food and everything. I'm pretty sure almost everyone bought shoes helping me earn 4 free pairs of shoes!!! I now have 7 pairs of shoes from My Shoe Shoppe. Oh I love those shoes, I think I'm slightly obsessed. It's a darn good thing I'm broke so I can't afford anything so I don't buy anything. Such as the Miche bags that I am in love with at work. They're those cool bags that you have shells for then you can just switch them out. I could get it for 20% off but I still just can't justify it when I already have 2 purses. My anniversary with Shane is coming up (5 years!) but I've already told him a million things I want (bra (haha I need a new one DESPERATELY!), watch, fishing pole, now a purse). Oh boy I'm on a roll...

I have to say I really appreciate Lisa and Rachel for coming to my shoe party and realizing that it doesn't matter if it was at my mom's. I'm so glad that some people (although it's not many) in my family can look past the crap between my mom and my dad's side of the family and realize that it's not a big deal. My boss asked me last night what would happen when I get married and Rachel said "eh they'll get over it." I love her for that :)

Now totally off topic, I just have to say it because I can't get it out of my mind. How come every girl seems to have that one creeper guy (ex or not) that just can't get over it? I have a really bad one. As everyone knows Shane and I broke up for a bit and I dated Booker. Oh my, WHAT WAS I THINKING?!?! First of all he's not my type nor is he attractive. I'm starting to think, as mean as it is, that I did it because I knew when Shane came back around I could let it go easily. Not that we actually dated because Booker is one of those guys who thinks that being a jerk to girls will keep them around. I also think that made is easier to drop him when Shane came around. It has been over a year and a half since Shane and I got back together and I stopped talking to Booker yet in his mind he thinks that he still needs to call me or text me. Shane said I should just be civil so I was until recently.

On my way to Portland he started some creeper memory lane thing with me that was totally inappropriate and I'm not going to lie. I lost all control and flipped out at him. I told him to expect this to be the last time he hears from me and that I was happy and he was nothing but a filler when I was with him. I know that was REALLY mean but I had to do it! He didn't talk to me for almost a month then on Saturday I got a call at 4 in the morning. I of course ignored it I usually ignore my phone at that time unless it seems to be important but it being him only pissed me off. In the morning I listened to the voicemail of him going on and on about getting beat up and it was the first fight he lost and he really needed help cuz he was bleeding and couldn't breath. Last thing he said was and I got stabbed... twice. OH MY GOSH!!! and that's an oh my gosh in the I busted up laughing way. I didn't feel bad at all cuz I knew it was just a ploy to see if I would talk to him. I told Shane about the message and he just laughed and said if he was stabbed he would start with "I was stabbed" and call the police not a girl. Aye, Aye, Aye! That's all I can say. I keep thinking this will go away but I know it won't, my mom said she still has a stalker guy from high school who recently tried to find her on facebook.

I guess I'm in a lifetime of creeperness for my bad decision.

Shane (stole this from Tay it looked fun)

1. he's sitting in front of the tv, what is on the screen?: cartoons or George Lopez, or Home Improvement
2. you're out to eat; what kind of dressing does he get on his salad?: ranch
3. what's one food he doesn't like?: my mom's enchiladas
4. you go out to eat and have a drink. what does he get?: coors light with clam (that's clamada)
5. where did he go to high school?: Laramie High.
6. what size shoe does he wear?: i bought him shoes once... don't remember though
7. if he was to collect anything, what would it be?: he collects cool coins
8. what is his favorite type of sandwich?: any as long as it has LOTS of meat!
9. what would he eat every day if he could?: hm... hard boiled eggs!
10. what is his favorite cereal?: The healthy stuff... or Marshmellow Mateys
11. what would he never wear?: a tux (haha) he did once for my work
12. what is his favorite sports team?: Broncos.
13. who did he vote for?: he didn't vote
14. who is his best friend?: His sister or Josh
15. what is something you do that he wishes you wouldn't do?: spend money
16. what is his heritage?: American (no joke that's what he tells me)
17. you bake him a cake for his birthday; what kind of cake?: none, he doesn't like cake, so I'd make him pie or cheesecake
18. did he play sports in high school?: wrestling and football but not while I knew him
19. what could he spend hours doing?: playing video games or building things
20. what is one unique talent he has?: he knows the solution to every "mr. fix it" scenario, I swear he can fix ANYTHING
21. one thing he wants to change about himself?: to have a "real" job
22. can he cook?: oh boy can he!!!
23. what was the last thing you guys did together that he planned?: umm... we don't really plan anymore (actually we never really did) we just do
24. how many brothers and/or sisters does he have? Kevin and Crystal
25. what are his parents' names?: Jerry and Jackie

Piloga and Anongs!

So a couple weeks ago my cousin decided we should do Piloga together. Piloga is a mix between yoga and pilates. I honestly didn't know what to expect on tonight on our first adventure there. Being the silly kids we are we decided to not walk there because we thought we might end up late and we were 20 minutes early. We went early just in case, we had never been there before and weren't so sure what the deal was. The class ended up started right on time and there was a class before us so we couldn't go in right away anyway. So we could've walked.

I learned today that yoga and pilates are HARD!! It requires A LOT of balance and strength that I was not expecting whatsoever. Our instructor Ayrin (I believe that was her name) was awesome. She'd give us two options and tell us which was harder. Of course we all would try the harder of the two and realize that it was REALLY hard. Thankfully all the girls but one were new so we all had a challenge. I thought since I was on the dance team that I'd be pretty good at it, however, I learned that balancing on one foot while all tangled up is much harder than it looks. There were times I had to hold it in for all I was worth not to laugh because I'd mess up so bad it was just funny. I really enjoyed it though and we decided it would be worth it to pay the $35 to go twice a week instead of 20 for once a week.

After the class Lisa said she had been craving Anong's (this amazing thai restaurant) all day and wanted to go. So we went to Anong's and although we didn't want to get our usual and scowered the menu for something different we both ended up with our usual Spicy Steak or Shrimp Salad. The night was definitely a good one and now I can't wait til next Wednesday!!!

Been trying forever!!!

Everytime I try to post the site won't work, drives me nuts but here I am and I'm through!!! I just had to get on here and say how much I love my life right now!!! I've found a way (not totally sure how) to just make everything totally stress free. My roommates have turned and are suddenly all nice. I'm somewhat confused by that since Steph and Brian are engaged. I figured because of that Rory would be pretty grumpy lately. We've got this whole new yard which is awesome and everything!!!! And now that the sun seems to be coming out sometimes, the dogs and I go on walks everyday.

Along with all of that Shane's been totally different in a good way. He just does certain things that are so different from what he usually did. I don't even know how to explain it. He texts me everyday just to say Hi and see what I'm doing. He finds things to do and waits to do things if he knows I might enjoy it too. I can't lie I love it! Maybe it's just the maturing thing and the fact that he's older.

I guess there's not much else to talk about. I'm just excited that it's finally sunny out again!

And here it comes...

I've watched Cameo count down the days for her wedding for over 150 days now and today is now the day after her wedding. The day went wonderfully despite some flaws with not enough food and the fact that her hair took me more than an hour than usual. Otherwise it was beautiful and she was so happy. Even Mark was thrilled and I've never seen him smile that much. This morning we went to her parent's house to open gifts and eat breakfast. The morning was great and lots of her family came to visit this morning too.

I finally left around 1:30 then it hit me, Jocelyn is gone and in just 5 days Cameo will be leaving too. BOOM!!! There goes by friends... I'm trying to make new ones but it's just so hard. I have Taylie and Chelsea but that scares me too. I know when school starts and dance starts that we will probably grow apart too.

Not sure why but it just hit me and I'm feeling a little down now today!