Weekend celebrations and Sprained Ankles...

So this weekend has been one for the books! Friday night we didn't get home until 3 in the morning. It was well worth the trip though cuz my sister is home and safe and we spent all day Saturday together. Saturday I woke up at like 8 which sucked and then I just laid there until about noon when I had to shower to go to lunch. My dad took us to the Bear Tree and then we came back and went to the soccer game. After that we went to my cousins and that's where the chaos began.

We had a celebration pretty much of her coming home and drank a little too much (totally not like me, I think it also had to do with no food). Then we decided to box and wrestle and stuff (with our special no hurting rules of course). Jordyne kicked the poo outta me this time lol and then Lisa kicked the poo outta Jordyne. All in all in was a fun night until I got home and Shane had hurt his ankle. He was sober and of course the only one to get hurt. Him and Matt were wrestling and somehow he twisted his ankle the wrong way. So we tried icing it which only made it worse. It was hurting so bad he couldn't stop the tears (not like crying) because he was trying to keep control of his breathing. So then Rory went to the ice place to get ice and made an ice bath for Shane's foot as well as found some ace bandage things for it. So, Shane and I proceeded to spend the next hour and a half icing his ankle (15 on 15 off). Finally around 4 we went to bed.

This morning Jerry came and picked up Shane and made him go to the ER. Unfortunately all that came out of that was what we thought. Nothing more than a really bad sprain and nothing we can do. Dr said no work for 2 days, stay off, ice, and prescribed some percocet. So kinda a waste but probably for the better. Due to my no sleeping for the past couple days I'm exhausted now! I did some studying (my mom thinks I won't remember it) and went to Shawna's Bridal Shower.

All in all it was a fun weekend though aside from sprained ankles and a killer headache. I wish my sister was here more often and that we would talk more while she was gone! I had a blast with her yesterday! Well off to bed and then the start of crazy week!

Picking Up Sister!!!

So today we're leaving at 5 to go pick up my sister friom the airport so she can spend her Spring Break with us! I haven't seen her since Christmas so depsite her flight getting in at 11:45 at night I'm so excited to see her!!! Yesterday I was so worried cuz the weather was so bad they shut down DIA it was hard to stay optimistic! I also have all weekend off which will be nice seeing how busy next week is going to be! Now I'm going to watch Sex and the City commentary version at work. It's been a slow day and I'm just waiting for Cameo to come so I can give her the blanket I made her! All in all I'm really excited today so of course it's going by really slow. My mom is getting her hair cut at 6 in Fort Collins, then we're going to meet Bill for dinner then by that time we should be ok to head to the airport to get Jordyne.
Unfortunately this is another short one but I'm sure you'll hear A LOT from our trip tomorrow!

Late Days, Parking Tickets, Brocolli, and a Change of Heart

Ha! It's just been one of those days!!! Neither mine nor Shane's alarms went off, actually I think they did, but we both left our phones on vibrate! Go us! Lol, I woke up an hour later than I had set my alarm, therefore, I had 25 minutes to shower and get ready for the day... I have to say I did well lol. I left my house at 850 on my departure for school... stupid snow! It looks pretty, but it's not fun to drive in. Luckily Shane got outta bed early to start my car for me while I was taking my 5 minute shower so I didn't freeze. Due to the snow and my lateness I was the bad kid that parked in residential sadly costing me a $50 ticket... we'll see when I have money to pay that.
What started as a not so great day never turned bad however, except also being 15 minutes late for work! Ugh, go me AGAIN!!! I'm trying to kick my horrible drug habit of sweets and coffee... it's a killer I tell ya. So far I have had nothing sweet today but instead had cooked brocolli! Anyone who spends lots of time with my mom would know that I hate brocoli so much (i can't even spell it) that one time I was trying to get it all down in one gulp of milk and unfortunately had too much in my mouth blocking my throat and causing me to pass out. Yes children, I passed out and seizured from brocolli! No hard feelings though, my grandma made it for lunch for the little guys today and her and I both painlessly choked it down. However, drivin across town from Alta Vista to work is inevitably what continued my late day!
Now here I sit at work watching Because I Said So (a daily occurance). I've come to find this movie is my little fairy tale, along with Sex and the City, that I seem to want to live by! Maybe I shouldn't watch these movies so much or movies in general. Give little girls bad images lol. Sex and the City is a killer though cuz it's totally opposite of my life. New York City, COME ON!!! Ha I only wish I could survive there, but little hometown me could not handle all the people without becoming a total bitch... don't laugh it's the truth! We all know however that I've found my Big and God only knows that it will also be 10 years that we've been seeing each other that we finally get married...
Speaking of marriage, I've had a TOTAL change of heart. I've always wanted the big fairy tale wedding (ha just like in Sex and the City). And in fact that movie has also helped my change of heart. I always wanted to big fun wedding with lots of people to celebrate with me, the princess dress, and awesome EVERYTHING!!! Yet, after watching Sex and the City the thousand times I've watched it, I've come to realize that it's not MY wedding, it's our wedding. As much as I love my best friend her 200 guest wedding is killer both money wise and people wise. It is for her, but not for me! Are there 200 people that know both Shane and I, or heck even just me, well enough that they should come to my wedding!? Also 200 hundred people would scare the living crap out of Shane, he's too much of a keep to himself and immediate family person for that. Also, along with the movie, I've learned from work that sometimes it isn't worth the money you will spend for one day! Sure it's an awesome celebration and a good excuse for a party, but that doesn't me that everyone needs to watch me say "I do." So here's my new plan, get the honeymoon and wedding done at the same time. I love beaches they are my favorite places to be. Therefore, I'd love to go on a cruise and get married on a beach. Anyone who would like to come is more than welcome but I don't expect everyone to be there. After my awesome week at sea, I will come back and have a HUGE barbeque. Hamburgers and hot dogs all the way (my dad said he'll make Shane ribs lol) and everyone can bring their favorite side dishes. I don't expect gifts because by the time Shane and I are ready for that we will probably already have everything we need.
I'm just too simple of a person for all the rest. Plus, no wedding or ring will ever change the fact that Shane and I love and care about each other. Sometimes in the silliest ways possible like him beating a video game then setting mine up with all the extra stuff so I can beat it (even though it'll take me twice the time). Or me telling him to go to dinner by himself with his friends and I'll find something else to do. It's just stuff like that, I don't need gifts or constant I Love You's to know he does. If the boy asked me today in the McDonald's drive thru with a 25 cent ring I'd say yes because it isn't about anything but us!

Whoops!

Forgot to add one thing! I had to do that background because first off I love pictures with little kids and secondly those are my favorite kinds of kisses. Right on the forehead! Makes me feel loved and still get butterflies even though Shane and I have been together 5 years!

Gray Clouds

Today I decided that instead of parking my car just 3 blocks closer to school then still walking like 3 blocks to get there I'd just walk. After it took me 15 minutes to walk from my house to 14th and Ivinson I decided I'd just walk to work as well... so after walking from 4th and Lewis to 14th and Ivinson then slowly making my way back again then turning around after lunch to walk to 9th and Clark I ventured from there to 2nd and Grand. Lots of walking I must tell you but even on a chilly day like this it wasn't go back! I threw my black pants in my bag (material is much thinner so I figured that would make me cold), grabbed a hat, and my usual Snap-On Camoflouge gloves (a product of my dad), and began my journey around the north part of town lol. Funny thing about it, I got warm walking with all my clothes. I also noticed while walking that gray clouds can be really pretty especially with the sun shining behind them. Now however, the real blizzard has set in and I had to call for a ride lol.
Some other things I've realized today are that I love being happy! I love not having anything to complain about :) it just makes me feel warm and different and lately I'm doing great at everything! I've found hobbies I love such as crocheting, writing, and photography. I oddly enough love playing video games with Shane. And I love having weekly dinners with my family and friends. I know this is short, but I am on my way to a weekly dinner right now and need to get all my stuff together!

Chilly Day

So it feels warmer than they said it was going to be... who knows if it really is though? Except, it's still pretty cold outside. These random weather changes destroy my hair, kinda remember why it's short and always up lol. BUT i love it long and it's time to grow it out, if only it grew as fast as my dang nails. Today was a work filled day, nothing too special. Amanda moved the shop around and it looks REALLY nice in here. Seems like there's more space and just a bit more organized. I did the display cases and I feel like the Cathy's Concepts one is cluttered but oh well.
Moving on to school! I've decided that's the only thing that brings me down! College is the worst ever and I always thought that it would be the best times of my life... ha I think those are yet to come. Next week I have 3 exams, work 40 hours, and my sister will be in town. I've decided of all those things school is the last one I am going to worry about. It's not really what I want to use, I'm just going to get finished pretty much to get finished!
On a good note! My mom met this really cool guy named Bill. He seems way nice and oddly a lot like her when it comes to his morals and passtimes. I really like him a lot and so does she, but we've both learned not to get our hopes up!
3 days until I get to see my sister!!!!!! So excited! Then after she leaves, little does she know only like 5 weeks until I get to see her again!!!! My mom is really worried about her, with the recession she doesn't make good money and has a hard time paying her bills. I think she needs to find a way to get rid of her car again, but then she wouldn't be able to go where ever she wants whenever she wants and that might be difficult. Other than that, I can't think of anythign she could get rid of. My dad pays her cell phone bill, but that still leaves her with school, rent, utilities, insurance, and car payment! Scary stuff, but I make it through every month and I know she will too!

Short one!

If I could see when I walked outside it would probably be pretty but I can't see due to snow blowing like crazy in my eyes! Yesterday we did some Spring Cleaning and it was so nice outside I went on a 3.5 mile bike ride with my mom (that's a short one for us) and the boys cleaned the back and front yard. I cleaned the kitchen and boxed up all the extra old pots and pans we have! Honestly, it was somewhat relaxing although it took me almost 3 hours.
We also traded beds with my mom. She has one of those do not disturb matresses, but right now Shane hates it. My mom said it took her a couple days to get used to and he just hates it. Wish there was something I could do other than trade back cuz it's a king and I think we REALLY needed that!
For today, that's about all. School started again and as always that's not so fun but I'll live.

Family Ties

As everyone who knows me well probably knows, I hold grudges like non other and if you hurt me or anyone I'm close to I can be pretty darn bitter. Well a couple of years ago when my parents got divorced I decided my dad needed someone to be with him too and was kinda over living with my sisters as much as I love them. Upon moving in with my dad and going through all the BS with the divorce with him and being thrown in the middle, I feel like I was somewhat forced to take sides. Now this isn't true anymore as I've told my parents I can't be in that position and would prefer to not know anything about what it may be that they still argue about (Lindsey mostly). However, while living with my dad I feel that my mom's side of the family turned their back on me for being there for my dad. They didn't come to my graduation or even call, no instead my grandma went back home for my graduation. And when my sister graduated about a year ago they sent her flowers and a card and some money the usual graduation stuff. Needless to say, my feelings were hurt.
I am just now starting to talk to my mom's side of the family again which is becoming easier by the day. I've decided that maybe I should let go of my grudge and begin letting them back into my life. It's a rough fix, but it's time. I talked to my mom's sister for almost an hour today and it was nice and just felt loved again by them.
However, the Ya-Yas will forever be my true family and for the past 13 years haven't turned away and hopefully never will. Sad to say, but I'm starting to realize other than Cameo, Chelsea, and Jocelyn all of my friends are in their 40's. Can't complain though I just don't want to be in the college life I guess.

Tax Season

Boy, how grueling is tax season! I've come to realize that I may enjoy Mary Kay, but it is not worth the money I spent on it seeing as how all those money I spent on it added up to twice the amount I made on it! Halleluah for it being tax deductible. Now let's hope my accountant can work wonders like she did for Shane!

Yesterday during my long nothing to do at work day I kinda just sat and thought all day, mostly about my topic from yesterday. I found out much about myself!!! The death of Natasha Richardson officially today made me come to the realization that life is short and can end at the drop of the house. If you were to read my old blog, which I cannot find so hopefully neither can anyone else, you will see that all I ever did was complain and carry on about how horrible life is. In reality while there may be things about life I cannot stand such as school, cold weather, and the fact that I feel sometimes Shane and I will never take the next step, those are things I cannot change. So instead of dwelling like life is horrible, I should look for the beauty in life.

I've already figured that out long before yesterday with Shane or at least when I started working in the Bridal Shop. Sure we may not be engaged or anything yet and I'd love to be. However, no ring, engagement, wedding, or marriage will change the fact that Shane loves and cares about me. Also I found that by putting myself into his world and enjoying the things he likes that I feel less distant and more accepted in our house full of boys.

I brainstormed some great ways to capture the beauty in life as well and thought of things I love but never do or have always wanted to learn more of. What it initially came down to was that I love writing but never do so I'd like to do that a lot more. And I want to start up some photography. Thanks to Stephanie Osborne of Ardent Photography, I realized how beautiful a snowy or cold day can be and for me those are the worst! I also decided I should stress less about school and understand that it's not about my GPA anymore its about making it through! I don't have to graduate college with a 3.8 or anything special I just have to graduate!

Dreams

My mom is the kind of person who follows the news like crazy and knows EVERY small silly fact possible. She knows what's going on in the world from tragedies to what celeb is getting married/divorced. She knows all the town news from who's HUGE and recently fired (or arrested as the new case is), to who is born, engaged, or even who's obituary has come up. My mom is going to be 40 on the 30th and as old as she feels I still believe she's very young (40 is NOTHING).
Before I go into what this is really about, I must give you some background info on my mom. She was born in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania and upon her parents divorce was moved here to Wyoming, yet when she visited her dad in the various cities the amazingly crazy man lived in she knew her heart lay in the city still. My mom and dad had me when she was 19 and my dad was 20 and although they say they didn't marry just because of me, I feel they did. It was young love and they didn't know each other. Needless to say, I have two younger sisters and my parents stayed together for 17 married years (20 non married i think?) for the kids. However, for the kids is far from a good idea seeing as how it took a toll on all of us girls since I was 17 when my parents separated and the youngest was 12. The divorce was ugly and also took its toll on my parents. My dad is now remarried and my mom has dated some new men (well children is more like it), but she hasn't found the one or even close to!
Due to all the circumstances above, my mom is doing it all backwards. She never graduated college although she had only 6 months left when my baby sister was born. From what my mom tells me, my Grandma (dad's mom) made her feel like a bad mom for pursuing her dream of graduating. However, maybe it was better that she didn't because her major in psychology (as well as mine) isn't what either of us dream of.
My mom being the news fiend that she is, is now realizing all of the people who are her age that she either knows or in the celeb world who are dying of various things. Within the month, 3 people from around the area in their 40's have died of cancer. But what really hit her was Natasha Richardson's skiing accident. The famous actress from movies such as the Parent Trap and Love Actually is on life support for a brain injury and is only 45. Despite all of what has been happening my mom has started to see that she never pursued the things she has dreamed of and that she's hitting that age. When I told her you won't die mom, she said " maybe not tomorrow but i don't want to waste anymore time... I just think I spent so much of my life wishing and protecting myself and you guys and not letting my dreams know cause everyone said I shouldn't because I had responsibility."
All of this is true, my mom was finished having children at the age of 23, but how does that make it her responsibility to guard us and not follow her dreams!? TOTALLY UNFAIR!!! My mom is one of those mom's that would drop head and foot for her kids and would (as she's already done), give my sister the 250 for her car payment and miss her own. My mom is the mom that HATES Laramie and wants to get out, but knows my sister has 2 years until she graduates and doesn't want to take her out of environment she knows. She's also the mom that when she will move, won't go farther than Denver because she knows that 10 years from now I'll have kids and she doesn't want to miss out on that!
My mom is an amazing mom and I so badly want her to pursue her dreams. Get out of here go to cosmetology school, be a photographer, spend time with her children and someday grandchildren. My mom deserves the best and when she finds it I will be right by her side at the court house (haha cuz alter just isn't happening for her!). My mom is literally my best friend and at my 21st birthday instead of being out bar hopping I will be out with my mom and the Ya-Yas, whatever they awesomely plan for me. I just want her to push herself and know that she can care about us, but needs to do her as well no matter how it may change her or my sisters lives. Anything and everything she has done will only better her as well as better us and I want her so badly to know that! She never steps without wondering how it will affect me, J, or Lindz.

Starting over

So I'm starting over my blog because I'm bad at remembering the password for the old one AND it was slightly depressing. All I did was complain and I don't want to come across like that. Anyway... after starting my new job at Mountain Valley Bridal I've totally found a new appreciation for Laramie and the people in it.
I've come to find that not everyone is a downer and that not everyone in this town is rude to everyone else. Mostly just the students. When you get to the real people who have actually grown up in Laramie or love it then they're not mean all the time. I love my boss because I feel like she gives me all it is I need to learn and she trusts me to do my job. Unlike those at my old job, she gives me the opportunity to show I am a great employee and I love that!
I've also found a new appreciation for my boyfriend (Shane) after becoming a little more involved in what he thinks is fun. I usually think video games are stupid and time consuming for no good reason, but playing with him is just fun and good! We get to spend time together and actually do things that we can both enjoy.
Only 6 more weeks until summer then the awesome part of the year comes!!! Also only 2 months until I get to visit my sister in Portland!!! How exciting!